-Do you believe in miracles ?
Not really , I think , it ended with the crucifixion of all those saints .
-Do you dream about a world make over ?
At least I can have a make over myself . I no longer believe I can change the world .Why should I give a damn about the world . Dude I want to get myself a life .
– Do you have any plans ?
I am already doubting life itself . WTH I have no time for planning any thing . Sorry for being aimlessly lost .
– Then you have no hope ?
Shit , am running out of hope 😥 . I just want to get the hell out of here . I really want to believe in any of those happy ending I was taught , but I can no longer lie to myself . It seems like the pre – visited paths doesn’t take me to the destination any more .
I feel like I am so out of place , out of time , out of phase …
I need some colors , some paint brushes , I need some magic …things are no longer bearable , the way it is .
I need a hand to grab me out of the gloomy way .
I just don’t know , where the hell is my starting point .